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following is an excerpt from an as yet unpublished novel entitled
"Alas, Poor Country," a story detailing the events of
the uranium boom on the Colorado Plateau in the late 1940s to early
1960s.
I could
hear the voices of my wives and daughters in the kitchen. What greater
restorative for a man than the sweet palaver of his women heard
through an open doorway in his home. It is surely the special dispensation
of God to the righteous, as all things, and a balm to the soul.
I sat in my chair and rocked and let the midday meal settle, ever
listening to the chorale of their voices. And how often I have sat
thus, in this spot, fulfilled in the generous provenance of the
Lord, and grieved to the heart at the wayward course of the church.
Bedeviled by a society in dire apposition to God, they have discarded
the principles of His word. Much as Christ was turned out to the
desert, so have we been.
It
makes me fearful because I know that God will pour out His judgments
upon those who have so rejected the testimony of Jesus. They have
a form of godliness but deny the power thereof. As He has told us,
"With promise immutable and unchangeable, that inasmuch as
those whom I commanded were faithful, they should be blessed with
a multiplicity of blessings; but inasmuch as they were not faithful,
they are nigh unto cursing. Therefore, inasmuch as some of my servants
have not kept their commandment, but have broken the covenant through
covetousness, and with feigned words, I will curse them with a very
sore and sorrowful curse."
My
elder wife, Jane, came from the kitchen, bringing me a plate of
sliced apple. This she set on the table and then placed herself
in the seat beside me.
"Eat
them before they turn brown this time," she bid me.
"I
do not mind them brown," I said. "I like them softened
some, like my wives."
"You
," she said, and shook her head. As she took
up her darning basket, I could see she was smiling.
I
ate from the plate of apples and watched her. She was the daughter
of Brother Weir, the best friend of my father. I had originally
thought her plain in appearance, taking more of her mothers
rounded face and small eyes than her fathers plain and rather
unremarkable aspect. But she had an unusually calm bearing and a
strength of faith that soon charmed me. Since then, she has not
changed, and has, along the way, born me four children. Each seems
to have been uniquely endowed with one specific feature of their
mother, as if by parsing herself in this way, she gives greater
praise to the bounty of God.
The
apples made me thirsty for water and after some moments, I got up,
and said, "I should like a drink."
"Sit
yourself," Jane said. Her fingers mid-stitch, she called to
Anna in the kitchen as Anna and the others completed the washing
of the dishes from the midday meal. "Anna," she said,
"please tend the well and bring your father a pitcher of water."
From
the kitchen, Anna said, "Yes, mother," and shortly entered
the main room with the water bucket and exited through the front
door.
Once
the screen door had clapped against the jamb, Jane turned to me
and softly asked, "Have you spoken to Brother Tipton about
Arthur."
"I
have," I said. "He agrees they would make a fine match.
Have you spoken to Anna of this?"
"Not
yet, but I think she will not be surprised." She smiled.
"We
have many trials. I do not deny it. We work hard to keep our post
and remain faithful to the covenants made, not only with each other,
but with God. And this is not always easy, especially when the world
would try so to stop us, to thwart us from having our eternal increase.
But is it not worth it, my wife, after all? Is it not worth it when
we are provided such blessings as the marriage of our first daughter
to such a man?"
She
said that it was. But before more could be said, I heard shouting
from outside the house. It was Anna, and in the next instant she
bolted through the screen door, her face crazy with fear and her
cheeks pale as wheat chaff. Her eyes were wide and white with horror.
"What is it, child?" I insisted.
"Oh
father, father, something terrible has happened, terrible!"
She
appeared half gone from whatever it was she had witnessed and was
shaking.
"Tell
me, what has happened?" I told her, rising from my seat.
"You
must come, now, right now!" She grabbed after my hand and endeavored
to pull me from the house. "Please father, Daniel will kill
him!"
"Daniel?"
I took hold of her shoulders. "Stop now, child. What is it?
What has Daniel to do with this? Tell me what has happened."
"There
is no time," she said. "You must come this minute!"
I bade
Jane wait and let Anna drag me from the house. The public grounds
onto which our homes all faced were strangely quiet. Normally busy
with children at this hour, I could see only the Caulder boys chasing
after a chicken in the shadow made by the eaves of their house.
"He
said he will kill him," Anna said.
I did
not understand any of it. Daniel had in recent weeks turned sour
and disagreeable, yes; he had begun resisting my authority, which
he knows full well is predicated upon the law and authority of God.
I was even forced the week previous to take the strap to him, which
I had not done for some time. But he is still but a young man, and
so I understand his susceptibility to a certain incontinence of
spirit, and for this I grant him some latitude. But what can he
have done, or threatened to do, to have so horrified his sister
I could not imagine.
Anna
led me out of the circle of houses and toward the flour mill and
the well. Before I saw anything of the spectacle, I heard their
voices. They came out of the distance without apparent ownership,
strange and otherworldly.
"Hurry,
father!" she said.
As
we moved by the grain shed, I spied them just beyond where work
had recently begun on a stone foundation for the school. I let go
of Annas hand and ran ahead of her. I found about a half a
dozen members of the community staring on at Daniel and young Brother
Tipton as they rigidly squared off against one another like dogs
with their ruff up.
"What
is this!" I shouted. Brother Tipton looked at me, his lip bleeding,
but did not answer. The onlookers gave me to believe by their expressions
that I somehow had a role in these terrible proceedings. Among them,
I noted Brother Madden, who stared at me hard and straight. "I
said, what is going on here?"
"Stay
out of this, father," Daniel said.
I pointed
at him. "Step back, Daniel," I said. "I demand that
you step back immediately. Brother Tipton, you too, step back."
But the two did not listen and instead continued their slow circling
of each other, left to right.
"Brother
Tipton," Daniel scoffed. "He is no brother of mine."
"And
you are a liar, Daniel," said Brother Tipton. "You have
broken your covenants with the Lord, and by His will you shall go
down for it."
Daniel
feigned a lunge, sending Brother Tipton staggering back on his heels.
"Better a liar than a coward," Daniel said. "You
and the rest, you will be buried by your fear. You are weak and
afraid and would have the world outside take what is ours. It is
only for boldness that God rewards man with real blessings."
"I
support your father," Brother Tipton said. "And here he
is. Why not tell him, tell him what you have been saying, what everyone
here has heard."
I stepped
forward and those about me drifted back until I stood alone. "Yes,"
I said, "tell me, Daniel. Speak."
Daniel
looked at me and said nothing, and his face was altered in some
particular I could not immediately identify. The new aspect chilled
me.
Seconds
went by and still Daniel said nothing. Brother Tipton drew his mouth
across the fabric of his shirt at the shoulder, wiping clean the
blood that issued from his lips. "Now you will not speak?"
he asked. "Where is your courage now, Daniel? He is here. Speak.
Tell him."
"You
shut your mouth, Arthur!"
"Apostate!"
Brother Tipton yelled.
"Im
going to cut you from this world," Daniel said, drawing a knife
from his boot. Its appearance sent a charge through those collected.
"Daniel!"
I said.
Brother
Tipton continued. "You are an apostate. You have forsaken your
very father, and abandoned your God, all for the promise of riches
made you by your uncle and his band of brigands. And now you will"
But
this was interrupted as Daniel launched after Brother Tipton with
great energy, slicing him across the chest where his shirt hung
open. I shouted after him and moved to intercede, but was frozen
when I saw Brother Madden take a step forward as well. He marked
me and shook his head.
The
men separated and those closest to Brother Tipton ran to him to
offer aid, which he waved off.
Daniel
spat into the dirt. "Abandoned God? You know nothing at all
of God because you fail to think for yourself. You, and those like
you, you are like children. You would have God wipe your nose before
doing it yourself. But the truly righteous know there is no reward
in heaven for a man who will not help himself on earth, Brother
Tipton."
Brother
Tipton pushed away attempting to tend to his cut. "Including
your father?" asked Brother Tipton. His face was pinched in
pain as the wound bubbled blood and soaked his shirt to the belt.
I spoke
up. "Enough, Daniel," I said. "Now throw down the
knife. Throw it down. What evil has infected you that you would
take up a weapon against your brother?"
This
made Daniel laugh. He wiped the bloodied blade on his pant leg as
he paced back and forth in the makeshift circle of men. "Evil,
father? No, no evil. You see evil where there is only strength and
sound judgment. You mistake action for evil. If you had eyes you
would see we are protecting this community."
"You
are in error, Daniel," I said. "You are young; you do
not understand. Now put down the knife."
"You
would have us do nothing," he said, "opening ourselves
to others that would take what is ours. No vision is necessary to
know that God would not provide for those unwilling to protect what
has been given. No age is necessary for that. As Uncle Loren has
said, when you act as prey, you are thought as prey."
I said,
"Your uncle is wrong, Daniel. Remember the words of the 18th
chapter of First Nephi: I did not work the timbers after the
manner which was learned by men, neither did I build the ship after
the manner of men; but I did build it after the manner which the
Lord had shown unto me. Do not be confused, Daniel; the two
are not the same."
"Enough
of this nonsense," Daniel said. "Say what you will, father,
but we will not permit our way of life, or the ore to which God
has led us, to be taken away. Not by fear or failure to--"
Then,
just as I thought the temper of the fight had begun to clear and
the men to settle, Brother Tipton leapt forward and seized Daniel,
deftly pivoting so as to hold him from behind. He clutched at the
arm holding the knife as if at an errant firehose. I rushed to them
and attempted as well to subdue his arm and weapon. But Daniel was
strong and just now full of the spirit of some malignant force,
and I could not, even with Brother Tiptons help, overpower
him. He cut me deep along my forearm and this sent me reeling backward,
my head gone light. And then I was on the ground. I felt aiding
hands on me and heard Annas voice, but could only watch, as
if after the transactions of a nightmare, Daniel and Brother Tipton
struggle in the dirt before me. They stumbled and twisted and then
Daniel managed to turn on Brother Tipton, cutting him again, this
time at his shoulder. This sent him hard to the dirt and in an instant
Daniel was on him, pinning the boys arms to the ground with
his knees and clutching his neck. Sitting above him, Daniel panted
and raised the knife above the others face.
"No!"
Anna yelled, springing from me. But the others stopped her. "No,
Daniel, no!"
Just
when it seemed Daniel was about to plunge the knife into Brother
Tiptons neck, Brother Madden appeared from the circle and
took hold of Daniels arm. He shook his head. "Enough,
Daniel," he said, and my son looked at him with his changed
face and then a moment later released Brother Tipton and got to
his feet. He stood there, slump-shouldered and wet from commingled
sweat and blood, Brother Warren still holding him at his wrist.
This was my son no longer.
I rose
to my knees. "You will regret this day," I said.
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